January42012
Well I thought I knew you, thinkin’ that you were true
Guess I, I couldn’t trust called your bluff time is up
‘Cause I’ve had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames cause your greed sold me out in shame
After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that
I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do, I wouldn’t know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I want to say thank you
Cause it
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing before I’d realize your game
I heard you’re goin’ round playin’, the victim now
But don’t even begin feeling I’m the one to blame
‘Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies cause you’re wanting to haunt me
But that won’t work anymore, no more,
It’s over
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now and never back down
So I want to say thank you
Cause it
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to know the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you’ll see
You won’t stop me
I am a fighter and I
I ain’t goin’ stop
There is no turning back
I’ve had enough
You thought I would forget,
But I remember
‘Cause I remember
I remember
You thought I would forget,
But I remember
‘Cause I remember
I remember
December142011
“It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?”
1PM
“Love is like a butterfly. Hold it too tight, it’ll crush, hold it too loose, it’ll fly.”
1PM
“Out of all your lies, “I love you” was my favourite”
November282011
Remember those movies with a woman with children and a lovely husband, she has everything… besides her one and only. Because she had given up her one and only because they couldn’t put together a proper lifestyle. She loves her husband with all of her heart, but it has just always been the other gut, and it always is. I never understood that way of thinking. How the hell could you live with a man knowing that he is not the one? Now I know. Now I understand. I always thought that even though it was tough, you would be able to live with your one and only. Not necessarily.
I don’t know if you were my one and only. But I don’t regret throwing you out of my life. I don’t regret being a stranger to you. If you are my one and only I’d rather die alone. I don’t want to love you ever again. I don’t even want to talk to you ever again. I want to make you jealous as hell, and I want you to miss me a lot. I hate you. And that irritates me. Because hate is a feeling. It’s not the opposite of love. If you were just air to me that would be the opposite of love. But if I hate you so much, then why could I even for a second think that you could be the one. Well, it was so easy with you, but it was also difficult as hell. You fooled around with other girls, and I just turned your flaws into beauty. Man, was I stupid?! But the main reason is that I have never met a guy that could flirt strongly with me, without me rejecting it. I use to hate all that sugar sweet talk. Every single guy I’ve had a crush on didn’t flirt like that and I thought they didn’t like me, but when I think about it now, they tend to like AFTER I’m done crushing on them. Or maybe they like me, but not so much that they would be in a relationship with me. But anyways I believed it, when you did it. Guess you had a lot of practice!
I ask you now to stay the hell out of my life, and let me move forward. I’m already crushing on a new guy. In fact I’ve been crushing on him before you, but of course that got on a stand by because of you. And I know, that there’s a possibility that he is not the one, but I’ll be able to love him just as if he was.
My conclusion is: I don’t know whether you are the one or not, but it doesn’t even matter, because I don’t care, and I’d rather be with the wrong one or even die alone, than to be with you.
I like an other guy now. And will continue being confused, and I will not be able to relax until I get him. Because I want to confirm that not only you can love me.
August212011
Stop using me to practice your “player-skills”! I know that you don’t really want me, but you’re still talking to me like you only have eyes for me… for like 2 sec. I’m not a toy, and I don’t want to be played… I don’t want to let myself be played!
June212011
I just woke up from a weird dream. I was engaged to Bob from Green Day. There’s no Bob from Green Day… but he felt real:D
June202011
I just watched The Notebook for the first time and now I’m crying my eyes out.
